Well it is
my turn to do some blogging!! Richard
has been doing a great job, but I think that this time, it would only be appropriate
that I share this message. He shouldn’t
have to do my work!! Well, it has been mentioned
only a bit, but I have really been struggling with the whole teaching in Kuwait thing! I developed anxiety when I started at CBS and
then because I took too many sick days, my contract was terminated. This was not a huge problem, because there
are sooo many teaching positions in Kuwait.
I tried 2 other schools and my anxiety was getting worse. So… we have made a decision. I will return to Canada and do some supply
teaching with my school board. There are
enough schools in the area to keep me pretty busy. I will stay with my brother and sister-in-law
in Kitchener. Thank goodness for a
wonderful family! Richard will stay here
in Kuwait and I will return in December for our trip to Africa with the
kids. I hope to try again at a teaching position
here in January, but not sure yet. One
step at a time….
While it is
not an ideal solution, it should work.
We will miss each other terribly, but there is skype!! Thank God!
It has been a real struggle as I feel very guilty…like I failed in this
adventure. But as my daughter Julie was
saying, if it was appendicitis or some other physical ailment, coming home
would be a non- issue. Mental health is
always kind of misunderstood and somehow I felt that I should just be able to
suck it up…but that was not working for me.
I started to feel like I was going crazy…not much fun! I kept saying that I made a huge mistake and
did not know that it would be like this.
We
certainly did not think that it would come to this, but there was no real way
of knowing what it was going to be like until actually getting here and living
the experience. When we were in Canada,
Richard and I would be talking about the whole teaching experience and how we
were so excited to be doing some travelling and living in a different country. I had said that it would be just like being
on holidays and he did not agree…saying that it will still be work. Boy was I
wrong! I have eaten my words very often!
Regardless
of the situation, we still have no regrets whatsoever about our adventure…we
have learned so much and it has been very enriching! I have to accept my limitations and make the
best of it. I am so thankful for my
friends and family who have spent so much time skyping and emailing with me and
listening and sharing so many encouraging words! I really don’t know what I would have done
without you!!! Richard has been
fantastic and is so supportive! I so
wish that it could work for me here, but….for now, it doesn’t. We’ll see what
happens after Christmas.
I’ll be
arriving in Canada on Monday October 28 at 1:30 pm! Can’t wait!